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05:29 pm: my night at kingdom
it all started when we first arrived at kingdom me, sarah, lisa and laura. when realized that the line was pretty much around the building and we might not be getting in but we decided to try anyways. so we started to wait, oh did i mention it was pissing down rain and cold as hell. anyways thank god i had a coat cause i wasn't wearing the most warm outfit. after about an hour we finally got in and found out they raised the cover from $5 to $10, which pissed me off but i paid anyways. i decided to next look for coat check since my coat was heavy and soaked. i finally found the line and waited in that one for 45 minutes. Finally it was my chance to get a drink so sarah and i go up to the bar and order two rye and cokes and a vodka shot each, since the other girls were way ahead of us by now. we get to the dance floor and start to dance for about 20 minutes and lisa decides to go to another room so we all head over there. by the time i got to the other room my drinks were done so we made our way over to the bar to get more drinks so i get two more rye and cokes and head out to the dance floor again. at this point drunkeness is setting in but i know they were playing good songs. anyways out of nowhere i get hit on the head really hard. this guy that was standing beside me said it was a plastic ghostbuster gun. my head hurt but the pain started to go away so ignored it. all of a sudden i feel something on my cheek, so i go to rub it and i look at my hand and it's covered in blood and i mean covered. sarah noticed as soon as i looked at my hand and we rushed to the bathrooms. well we didn't know where the bathrooms were so i went to a bouncer and this really nice girl took me into the back room. two security guards looked through my hair and found where i was bleeding from and put peroxide on me, supposedly the cut is only the size of a dime. while i was sitting there holding paper towels on my head two other guys come in and they're both bleeding from the head and then two more guys come in and they're fighting. so there is basically a lot of blood flow in this little back room. i decided to go to the bathroom at this point to wash my hands little did i know once i found a mirror that i was covered in blood all over my neck and chest and the side of my face. while i was cleaning up sarah went and got lisa so we could leave and take me to a hospital. kingdom being the gay ass club that it is called me a cab and threw us out into the rain to find it. finally we found one and he got me to the henderson in 15 minutes. so now i'm at the hospital with sarah and i'm hammered and all the nurses are gathering around listening to me talk and tell stories of god knows what. so me and sarah had to wait one hour to get into the emerg part and then another hour until i was put into a surgery room and then another hour until they stitched me up with 3 stitches. as i sobered up i realized that sarah had blood on her, i had blood all over me and i still had my little purse. there was also a cute nurse there and i should've gotten his number for sarah but at the time i had other things to think about. anyways jesse picked us up form the hospital at 4:30 and i went home to bed. the end of the totally unpredictable tales of alicia.

06:39 pm: m is for mono and its the shitest thing in the world!
i don't know for sure cause my stupid doctors office closed so damn early today that i couldn't get my blood test results but i am 100% sure i have mono. i looked it up and i am completely suffering the symptoms of mono. i have hives all over my body which i cannot get rid of at all. but the worst part it over, my throat is going down i just have to deal with the hives which is hard when there is no cure. but i attempted to go to work today, i was fine when i left the house but by the time i got to work i was completely covered in hives, head to toe. the people i work with looked at me and told me to go home. so the point of the story is i was pissed cause i bused all the way there in the rain and then i had to bus home in the rain with hives, which everyone on the bus had apparently never seen before. i officially experienced what a midget experiences everyday, constant staring. anyways there isn't really much else going on, ih ave been stuck in bed for almost three weeks now so i'm slowly making a recoverey. i just wanted everyone to know i'm not dead, I WILL SURVIVE!!!

09:18 pm: pissed and thirsty as hell
i have no idea how to describe how i feel right now. i am absolutely pissed. i just came back from seeing my lovely neighbour who i visit often and who i also talk to when i need someone to talk to. BUT tonight she just sat there and analyzed me and tore me to shit. she pointed out everything that is wrong with me and everything that she believes i am doing wrong. usually i can just push it aside and ignore it but i take her opinion seriously and it hit me hard tonight to the point i was almost in tears.i feel fucked up , i feel like a complete failure and i feel ike i am going nowhere in my life. i am also very thirsty. i never drink water but i am about to finish a whole bottle of water which i never do.i think shes jealous of me. just because shes 33 and lives on her own without anyone to really care for her, she takes it out on me. considering i am younger than her, i don't think thats very fair. i need to learn things on my own, i need to learn myself. i am going to make life mistakes, i know that but i ned to make them on my own. i was in such a good mood cause i had an amazing weekend but now its ruined. ok i'm done. good night all

08:51 am: a very nice and refreshing weekend- no one has to read this since it seems everyone is mad at me
so much has been happening to me lately, but every single thing has been life changing. its so weird, cause its never happened before. i have suddenly had this thirst for knowledge to understand the earth, the people on it and behaviours. i know its sounds kind of weird but its true. i'm really into reading books and i can't believe how much i've read so far this summer and i just want to keep on doing it.

the weekend was very nice and relaxing and very educational. i learnt how to truely enjoy life for what it is, how to appreciate what is around me and not take things for granted. you realize how much more precious people are when you only have linited time with them and it hurts more and more every time to leave them. i also regret taking some friendships for granted or maybe not taking them for granted but not expanding on them more because now i'm gaining friendships that i wish i always had. yes, i am losing some friendships but i'm to the point where i feel that if friendships are meant to be you shouldn't have to work at them.

i started to think a lot about what i want in life and i came to the conclusion that it doesn't matter what i'm doing, where i am, who i'm with ...as long as i'm happy and comfortable. and lately i haven't been happy and i'm slowly getting to that the place where i am happy.

and i have a few people to thank

Britt- i'm going to put you first because you're the person i have been spending the most of my time with lately, i need to thank you for being there for me lately and for introducing me to happiness and helping me learn that a friendhsip can grow deeper even after so many years

Sarah- thank you for pointing out the obvious, now i can't get my mind off of it

Meegan- for giving me the chance to experience a true friendship

Joe- thank you for giving me the basics i needed to know for a growing a healthy relationship, which i feel we truely had because we're still good friends to this day

My mom- thank you for helping me realize the person i don't want to be, the life i don't want to live

Kym- thank you for showing me what true friendships should be all about

My brother- for showing me that dreams can come true, you just have to work at them and make sacrifices

Nash- thank you because i now know love is something that doesn't come quickly, its something that grows and takes time to build, you unfortunately don't realize that yet

Tracie- for making me see that life isn't only about working, sleeping, eating and breathing, it's so much more than that

Nick- for saving our lives on sunday cause you saw that car

Tristan- for the giant smile on my face

Hannah- for showing me that people are mad at me, i wish they weren't

I think thats all for now, and i hope no ones sees this as my attempt to dig myself out of a hole.i don't consider myself in a hole right now, everything is where it needs to be right now.

i hope everyone had a good weekend.

alicia

oh yes and emily if you read this which you may not but if you do i want to say this anyways, i'm sorry cause i now know how you felt all those times before when you were mad

12:01 pm: time for my once in awhile update!!!
wow!! so much to update on.

well i am officially finished school! thank god but i unfortunately didn't pass my national board exam which means i cannot get a job yet. i have to wait til september to write again. although i was upset at first, i now see it as an opportunity to enjoy my summer, which i have been doing. my das consist of waking up around 9 then sitting in my pool until about 12:30 theni shower and go to work. after work activities always vary.

I have also been doing al ot of reading lately on the issue of global warming and i must say i am getting addicted to it. it pretty much all i think about right now, ways to prevent it, why it started happening in the first place and how we all contribute to the existence of this earth. its pretty complex stuff but the books i am reading are making it easier for me to understand and analyze at a deeper level. There is also a movie out right now playing at westdale theater called "An Inconvenient Truth" it's a documentary/slide show made by AL Gore who is actually quite knowledgable in the subject and he has now become inspiration to me. he has travelled all over the world to look first hand at the effects of global warming and i think i want to make that my new goal. i now want to travel for a purpose not just sight seeing. i want to find ways to help, iunfortunately i don't have the education for it but i am trying to educate myself so that i knid of know whats going on. but a point to my travelling is also to learn more about the crisis as i would ike to call it. i also adopted a polar bear today...i'm turning into a geek..lol.

ok enough about that for now what else has been going on??? oh i had my grad on monday night which was smal and cute. it was only about an hour long which is nice and it was at the chamber of commerce. i don't know if anyone has been there before but it is on the bay and the building is made of windows and just because of the time it was during the ceremony it was beautiful to look outside. i also got to see some people from my class which i haven't seen for awhile.

i'm going to be camping this weekend!! well not really just sleeping in a tent outside but it's still exciting since i haven't been camping in almost 2 years. we're also going to be having a bonfire which i i had ast weekend but its a bnofire follwed by tent sleeping which makes it all the more better. iactually havea quite a busy weekend coming up. saturday is completely full with work and the kamikazee baby show!!!! if anyone is not busy that night they're playing at the underground and they are a very good band. sunday i'm off to the lovely londont o visit my aunta and uncle for the day then off to tristan and nicks at night. water park on monday!! i can't wait, i have yet to visit water works this year so i'm dying to get to a water park.

well i just realized what time it is and i have to get ready for work so i guess this will be the end of my update although i didn't quite get to update everything.

i also got the new chilli peppers CD the other day, they're amazing! love it!

alicia

03:06 pm: this bugs me
ok so the other day me and katherine were pondering the existence and daily life of a blind person. how do they know what human beings look like if they've never seen one? they will never be able to understand colours cause how can you explain a colour? they will never be able to paint a picture of what they see cause they can't explain colour and they can't see what they are painting. they will never be able to enjoy the beauty of a sunset or sunrise. blind men will never be albe to aim properly into the toilet bowl. they will always have difficulty adjusting to new environments.

but there's nothing we can do to help them............

i am jealous of them though for one thing>>>>> i would love ot listen to music through a blind peron's ear.......it would be incredible

thoughts of the day

07:54 am: Saturday
Hey Hey!

ok so saturday sailboats are white are playing at the underground and i will be attending if anyone is interested. let me know............I'M FINISHED SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thats all for now...

12:33 pm: 24 days and i am officially finished school. kind of scary, kind of exciting. i have to finish 27 people by next tuesday or i can't write my board exams at the end of may, but i have set my mind to finishing theses people and when i set my mind to something, i do it dammit!! lol so wish me luck guys! ok so lets see whats been going on with life since my last post....hhmm not much obviously. anyone who watches gilmore girls be damn sure to watch the season finale next week because its going to be a good one!!!!!! and i mean like "best episode yet" good.

so it was my bum chum's birthday yesterday and i din't get the chance to talk to her, i think thats the first time i've never seen her on her birthday. i have a really bad cold, i think its the virus thing my brother had, sore throat, stuffy nose, sinus head aches, ugh!! i took the day off school today and decided to sleep, which felt pretty good. i can't wait to sleep in everyday soon. i really want to go camping.....but i have to wait til july 15, its so far away...rockwood, shoudl be a nice park, i just can't wait to lay on the beach and relax for a week. sarah is leaving this sunday to go plant trees up north. now when she told me up north i thought she meant 5 hours away but no her bus trip is 15 hours long....i really wanted to go do this thing with her but my school didn't end soon enough. oh well she'll have fun and shes gonna write me, yeah! i don't think i've received a letter in about 3 years or something like that....ok maybe even longer.

can you ever be friends with an ex? i keep thinking this to myself over and over again. is it possible or is there just too much hate there that can't be looked past? it really sucks cause you basically lose the best friend that you've had for a long time because of a change of heart. its really hard.

well the new guy i am seeing is going pretty well. i was a little scared at first but i'm starting to really like him. BUT he has an interview in london today for a permanent job, so if he gets it he will be moving to london...not too sure what to think of that?? i guess i'll just wait and see what happens.

Bijou is getting pretty big and crazy, she had more character now and we're getting to know what she likes and dislikes, she can go up stairs but not down yet. i'm an idiot cause i cut out a picture of sam the other day to put in a frame in my room and now everytime i look at it i want to cry cause i miss him alot, especially this time of year, cause its nice out and we would usually be going for walks right now.

i;'m so hungry but i can't taste anything so its pointless to eat in my opinion. it sucks and i have to work in an hour, happy happy joy joy!! anyways i'm off talk to you all later!

alicia

04:57 pm: heyo!!!
figured i would update....you guys should feel special cause i only do this once in awhile, you're all special! well not too much has been going on. i only have 2 months left of school!! woot! but i'm not that excited cause i need more time to finish all the people i have to do. i'm upi to 17...13 more to go...yikes. i am laso working all the time now, i work 6 days a week after school, its getting to be iresome, but i like the money. i'm going to open up a seperate account for my europe trip i plan to take with sarah in 2008. we are goingto be hitting portugal, spain, ibiza, paris, germany, switzerland, italy and greece. i cannot wait!! but i have to .....for two more years. oh well gives me time to save up. its going to be a two month trip maybe even longer depending on how much money we save up. its weird cause i've know sarah for probably 7 or 8 years now and i never thought we'd be friends now, never mind taking a trip like this together. i'm not saying she's a horrible person to get a long with or anything but i don't have any friends from my childhood, only her, i kept one!!

i hate working where there's chocolate bars cause i just eat them and i'm trying to lose weight right now, well not lose weight but tone up cause i was just looking at pictures of myself in a bathing suit last summer and i was gross. so i'm going to look better this summer....besides im on the market, lol. well i have definately cut down on eating junk, i used to go to the bargain shop every friday and buy a bag of junk food to study with, thats a lot of ugar and fatness.

well my parents bought a puppy last week, shes is pretty damn cute and her name is Bijou. she is the center of attention in my house right now thats for sure. she was doing pretty good up until wednesday night when she started puking everything up, she would eat then puke, drink then puke. so the next day we took her to the vet and it turns out she has two different types of parasites in her and she has a yeast ifection in each ear from when they gave her a bath. IDIOTS!! shouldn;t breeders know that when you bath a puppy don't put water in their ears....yeast infection!! anyways i think we should make the other vet that cleared her before we got her to pay the charges from our vet, cause shes on three different medications now and special food all of which aren't cheap. good thing shes cute or my parents wouldn't have paid it.

anyways tonigth i'm going to my brothers show, i haven't been to one in awhile...i owe him one. my cousins are meeting me down there so that should be fun, i guess we're going out after too so we shall see how my night turns out. good thing i got paid today. pay day!!!

anyways gtg, i'll update you all in month again!

05:07 pm: at work and bored out of my fucking mind
Name: Alicia Anne Daigle----> doesn't it flow so well, wow my mom is intelligent
Birthday: Dec 23rd 1986
Birthplace: stinky hamilton ont
Current location: stinky hamilton ont
Eye color: bluish grey, depends on the season
Hair color: red with roots
Height: 5'4
Weight: 125......omg!!!
Piercings: um none, but wait for school to finish
Tattoos: nope
Overused phrase: "oh yeah?"


Favourites...
Food: everything, mexicalli dip and this chocolate swirl ice cream i've been eating lately
Candy: fuzzy peaches or peach rings
Number: 9
Color: blue
Animal: pugs!!!
Drink: chocolate milk or apple juice
Alcohol: rum and coke!!......or bacardi
Bagel: everything bagel (with herb and garlic creamcheese)....meegan you copied me
Letter: A.....i have so many in my name, i can't help but like it
Best part of the opposite sex: bad boys....lol...whatcha gonna do!
Best part of the same sex: if i can have fun with them


This or That...
Pepsi or Coke: coke all the way!
McDonalds or Burger King: if i had to pick mcd's but only for their mcmuffins
Strawberry or watermelon: strawberry
Hot tea or ice tea:ice tea
Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
Hot chocolate or coffee: hot chocolate....i've had two already today, amd i didn't win on the rims...
Kiss or hug: hugs.and kisses...hehe
Rap or punk: i can take rap more than i can take punk
Summer or winter: they both have their ups and downs
Scary movies or funny movies: scary!!!
Love or money: is there really such a thing as love?

Your...
Bedtime: 10 or i'm dead the next day
Most missed memory: sitting in front of the fire with meeg talking about life at 1 in the morning
Best physical feature: my long hair, even though it pisses me off daily
First thought when waking up: what day is it? whos teeth am i working on? do i have an extra 10 minutes to sleep?
Goal for this year: finish school
Best friends: hhmm meegan and sarah
Weakness: food and gossip magazines
Fears: being alone for the rest of my life
Heritage: french canadian bitches!!!
Longest relationship: 3 years


Have You...
Ever smoked: oui oui
Ever smoked pot: oui oui
Ever been drunk: beaucoup
Ever been beaten up: non, except when i was at a tae kwon do tournament once, i got the shit kicked out of me, then sarah beat the amazon woman up
Ever beaten someone up: of course, i beat meegan all the time, shes weak...HAHAHA~~
Ever shoplifted something: yes, some things are just over priced
Ever gone skinny dipping:yes and i can't wait to do it again
Been dumped lately: yes i was kind of dumped...


In a Guy or Girl...
Favourite eye color: brown
Favourite hair color: brown
Short or long hair: preferrably short
Height: has to be taller than me, i know that sound bad but its true, i can't help it
Style: looks like he's up to trouble..lol
Looks or personality: personality
Hot or cute: preferably hot, who wouldn;t want a hot boyfriend cause then you ask people what they think of your boyfriend an if they say "hot" you feel so much damn better than when they say "he's cute".....muayayay
Drugs and alcohol: i don;t understand what you're asking....do i like feminin or masculin drugs and alcohol??
Muscular or really skinny: muscular but notlike overdone turkey


Randoms...
Number of regrets in the past: a few, not many
What country do you want to visit: right now new zealand, i plan on heading down there
How do you want to die: in my sleep or a drug overdose, either way i'd go out feeling good
Been to the mall lately: no i miss cinnabons
Do you like thunderstorms: i love them!
Get along with your parents: i don with my dad, not so much my mom
Are you a health freak: no but i go to the gym to make it look like i am one....aren't i clever?
Do you think your attractive: i thnk i'm fat
Do you believe in yourself: i have to or i wouldn;t get through school
Do you want to go to college: sure...lol... i'm in it right now
Do you smoke: didn't you ask me this already?
Do you drink: again i think i was asked this question
Do you shower daily: haha its funny cause me and megan are like the oposite in most ways but our showering frequencies are so alike...
Have you been in love: don't think so, i don't know what the hell love is
Do you sing: in the shower and it sounds great
Do you want to get married: not sure yet
Do you want to have children: eventually
Do you have your future kids names planned out: i did in like grade 8 buti lost the list
What's the age that you want to lose your virginity: this question should have been phrased "what age did you lose your virginity?"
Do you hate anyone: haha i am the master of hating...actually i've gotten better, i accpet people more easily now.

there it is, wow that passed a whole half an hour that was great, almost ime for me to go home!!!!

nothing is new with me so i don't have to tell you guys anything, sorry!
!

08:58 pm: i've decided to join the stupid quiz club
TODAY...

1. Had sex: no but does yesterday count???

2. Bought something: i bought an everything bagel toasted with herb and garlic cream cheese and a hot chocolate.......ROLL UP THE RIM TO WIN IS BACK!!!.......i lost

3. Gotten sick: if you meana cold yes....my nose won't stop running

4. Sang: yes i was listening to a lot of foo fighters today and i was singing it when i got home

5. Been kissed: nope not today, i'm sure my rabbit will give me a kiss later

6. Ate something: ye si already told you about the bagel, and then a sandwich, a meatball sub and some cake, yes ladies the cake is gone and its in my belly!!

7. Felt stupid: ya i was working on my cousin today and i put the mirror on her tongue not realizing that her tongue is sensitive and she started to make gagging noises and i thought she was trying to....oh never mind she ended up spitting my mirror out and we were laughing but i felt stupid

8. Missed someone: i really don't think i've had the time to even think about missing someone today, but i came across a picture of my dog today and i started to cry cause i miss him


LAST PERSON WHO...

1. Slept/Layed in bed with u: wesam....... last night, wish i was there right now


2. Made you laugh: kevin, he's is so damn drunk tonight

3. Made you cry: i made myself cry does that count?

4. Went to the movies with: oh geez, i think the last time was when i went with jess, adam, dan, kevin and catharine

HAVE YOU EVER...

1. Said "I Love You" and meant it: to my family yes

2. Got in a fight with your pet: me and my rabbit have many fights, i don;t thihnk any of you have slept near him before.........well i know meegan can agree with me

3. Been to New York: no ....one day when i have some money to spend and when i'm legal to drink there.

4. Been to Mexico: no would like ot though

5. Been to Canada: yes and its the most beautiful place i've seen so far, maybe not hamilton

7. Been to Europe: no i'll make it there some day, i plan to move to switzerland so i'll be a european citizen

1. What book are you reading?: son of a witch by gregory maguire the sequel to wicked

2. Worst feeling in the world: loneliness

3. Future KIDS name: i used to have some but i forget them

4. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: sure do, seamore my seal

5. What's under your bed: some totes, random booze, a few condoms, some dirty socks, a towel, some papers.....ok thats all seriously iunder my bed cause i just went and checked

STUFF. . .

1. sports to watch: HOCKEY!!!

2. Location: the computer room, in my underwear, i just got out of the shower

3. Piercing/Tattoos: i can't have piercings right now because of school but i will eventually and i do want a tattoo on my back but i haven;t decided what i want yet

4. Are you afraid of the dark?: no i actually find it peaceful especially when listening to music

5. What are you most worried about right now?: passing school.....being alone....moving away alone

6. Where do you want to get married?: in a rainforest

8. Do you have a job: yes too many!

9. Do you like being around people: not usually, i'm more of an alone person but i don't mind it once in awhile, i don;t hate it

10. Have u ever liked someone that u had no chance with: so many damn times

11. Have you ever cried: of course.....for many diferent reasons

12. Are you lonely right now: no i'm actually enjoying my time to sit and do nothing for once

13. Song that's stuck in your head: some dallas green song

14. Played strip poker: actually i have with my ex-b/f i don;t think that counts unless its complete strangers....that sounds interesting actually

15. Been drunk for more than 2 days straight: no i can't even imagine that

16. Pulled an all-nighter: yes of course, hav eyou ever met meegan before?

17. Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: i knwo a few......lol i won;t even say anything about the lesbian ting.......experience!!!

ok so i'm just sitting here waiting for meegan to call.she said she would call at 9, its now 9:17.....i could be lseeping by now, she better realize how much i like her to stay up a little bit longer for her phone call. there really sin't much for me to talk about so toodles

alicia

11:21 am: ugh.......
one of the shitest weeks of my life.....

-i've been working everyday which isn't that bad, i like the new place cause the shitty pharmacist isn't there, he's on vacation this week

-i had sarah in all week to do her teeth but i ended up getting a bad mark so she doesn't count

-i just got a call from jessica today and supposedly our presentation is now next wednesday instead of april 5, so now i have 4 days to get the presentation ready

-i'm quitting my friday and saturday job today , so i have to write up a letter today to hand in

-i couldn't find anyone to bring in today so i brought in lindsay and she ended up being sick in the bathroon of my school so i had to take her home....i also found out she has a very depressing life which makes me feel depressed

-i'm just sitting around waiting for tracie to get home so i can head over to her place before work and help her pack cause she's moving on wednesday

-i haven't had a call from my best friend in four days and shes never home

-i have a proposal due on wednesday that i haven't even started

-wesam hasn't called me since sunday, i'm sure he'll call when he wants sex

-my weekend involves sitting infront of the computer

-corey won't answer my stupid phone calls


BUT THERE ARE THINGS TO LOOK FORWARD TO~~~~~~~~

me and sarah planned a trip for the summer for a week, we're renting a car and going camping at algonquin, i haven't gone camping in forever so i am so damn excited......thats pretty much all i have to look forward to


hope everyone has a good weekend..........don't try contacting me cause i'll be in computerland

07:59 pm: the pug on my desktop is so damn cute
well i am siting in my computer room, bored, its warm in front of the heater though so i am content. i'm really tired today, i don't think i caught up on the sleep that i lost last weekend. i should make it an early bedtime tonight but i feel like a loser cause it's friday night, isn't friday night when you're suppose to party?? i applied for another job today, its in the same company i work for now, just different days of the week. i need money i'm not too sure what for but i feel poor and i hate being poor. if i had money i could go places like the movies or buy myself new clothes when i actually find something nice i want to buy.

i can't get my future off of my brain....i don't know what to do with it?? its right there and all i have to do is pick it up and pet it, but its like looking at a dog from behind you don't know if its going to be a mean dog and nice dog or a dog thats just weird looking. so do i take a chance and see what kind of face my dog has?? i actually don't think that makes any sense but i'm really tired right now so i might say a lot of stupid stuff.

i played super nintendo today...teenage mutant ninja turtles: turtles in time, what a great game.......actually in all reality its sucks, i think just because i used to play it when i was young it brings back memories so i think its a good game. i dunno.....just a highlight of my night. i also went to Dimaggio's for dinner, that was good i've never eaten there before, but it was tasty. before we went into the place this huge truck smashed into a pole, it was really scary. so now i'm afraid of going outside, i don't want to die today.

i've been having really fucked up dreams lately and i hate all of them. i'm dreading sleeping right now cause i know i'll have a shitty dream that just makes me feel like shit when i wake up. you know those dreams that you have when you wake up thinking it's real? i've been having those for like 3 days now and it's bringing my mood down which was very good at the beginning of the week.

i just realized that i got all showered and dressed up for nothing today. ugh....i need to cut my hair, it's way too long, but i just got it cut and she cut like nothing off.

has anyone ever thought so hard about why we are on this earth that they make their head hurt? i did it today i just kept thinking why are we here? if there was no earth what would there be? why life? why anything? its hurting right now just thinking of it. in my next life i want to be a fish. i love to swim and just the thought of swimming and breathing at the same time is exciting. well i got to experience that when i went scuba diving. i couldn't get over the fact that i was swimming and breathing at the same time and to top it off everytime i looked over there would be at least 6 fish swimming besaide me, swimming with me. it was also really quiet down there in the water, peaceful, relaxing and mind clearing.

i'm starting to feel better by writing all of this out so i'm going to keep going i guess i should write a warning at the top of this so that anyone who doesn't want to read about a bunch of nothing will read this. oh well.....haha, i'm evil. i wish i coudl read minds.....there are so many minds i would like to read right now, one in specific but i won't get into it. i think my parents are arguing about something, they won't stop yelling at each other, i wish i could just pulll my ears out and put them in the fridge for a little while, i bet it's quiet in there.

how many kids does everyone want to have? or is that something on ly i would think about....i want 4, is that too much? i think its a good number. but i also want four boys, i'll take a girl if i have one but i want 4 boys. i want the constant choas, i want teachers calling me telling me my boys are misbehaving, it woudl just be interesting, never a dull day.

this is getting a little long so maybe i'll stop now, i need to go to sleep. but i don't want to cause i know those dreams will come back. i just had a really interesting conversation with masaki, its always great talking to him. ok going to bed now.


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ill try and change my userpic to the pug

09:05 pm: great weekend!!
i guess i will post a little something right now since i am in a great mood. this weekend has been one of the best weekends i've had yet. i finally got what i wanted.....and i couldn't be any happier. thats really all i have to say!! and dave i agree people do need to find more joy in the smaller things in life cause why bother worrying about big things when you can be happy about a bunch of little things. anyways good night all.

03:53 pm: hello???
well it's a shitty day outside...kind of makes me feel shitty. actually i haven't been feeling great physically since this morning, i don't get what's going on, what is happening to me!! well my week went well i must say ,i didn't fail anything, although i almost did today but because my teacher felt i did so well that she didn't fail me, how sweet of her. anyways it is friday, how exciting, except for the fact that i am at work and not at home relaxing. i get some mexically dip tonight, YES!! i love that stuff. tonight is a soco and coke night for sure, can't wait. meeg how did you make out handing out resumes?? good?? no good?? you better have gone out and not stayed home cause it was raining. anyways i have to go work, talk to you alls later!

alicia

07:53 pm: i am the mitochondrian--POWER HOUSE OF THE CELL!!

Mitochondria You scored 60 Industriousness, 22 Centrality, and 15 Causticity!

You're a mitochondrion! The mitocondria is a "power plant" of the cell. Nothing could ever get done in the cell without you creating energy. Since both the Citric Acid cycle and Oxidative Phosphorylation happen inside the mitochondria, you are critical to every eukaryotic cell. You are always a hard worker, no matter what you are tasked to. Most of the time, you tend to be working in the background, but that often suits you just fine. You get along with almost everyone, and aren't these the most important things?

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 71% on Industriousness You scored higher than 14% on Centrality You scored higher than 0% on Causticity

Link: The Which Cell Organelle are you? Test written by fading_shadows on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

so is this a good thing?????

02:59 pm: update! update! UPDATE!!!
i am at work and completely bored. ugh c=school is just a huge pain in the ass right now. i keep getting bad grades which make my patients no count which makes me further away from graduating. and i was really upset at the beginning of the week about it and made an appointment with the head of clinic and thank god he's the head of the clinic or my life would be ten times harder. he's not a girl on a power trip he's a guy trying to avoid all of the girls in our school's PMS, so he lets us have what we want. anyways i went in to talk to him and he was actually very helpful, he made me feel a lot better about the grade i got even though he couldn't change it. so now i'm in a better mood then i was this morning and i'm excited for tonight, movie night!!! i can't decide between coke and soco or coors light?? anyway si have to go work so i'll a bit more later

03:18 pm: my update
well i'm at work and writing an entry and this wastes a lot of time, it's great. well not too much has been going on with me lately. i started school again this week, its good to be back but then its not good to get back. i have no breaks now from now until may which is when i graduate. its scary, i just hope i can finish my 30 clients in time. well i have done 4 now i only have 26 to go....lol. well my brother freaked out on me last night. i thought i would be a nice sister and go pick him up at adam's house and i walked in and he was asking me why i was there and to go home cause he was going to walk. well then i freaked out and i told him i didn't drive there for nothing. anyways the fight went on like that and we haven't fought in awhile, it was weird. then i went home and told my om about his little outburst and of course she brings it up right away, i don't know why she does that ...anyways then he started yelling at my mom and swearing at her, so then i started yelling at him. it was awful, but my mom just took it she didn't even defend herself, if my dad was there he would have slapped him or something. but i guess he realized he was being stupid cause he said sorry this morning. something has been wrong with him lately.

anyways on a better note it's friday!!! i swear i hate fridays and everyone else in the world loves them. i leave the house at 6 in the morning and come home at 6, its so long!! then i can't do anything fridat nights cause i work the next day at 9. boo to fridays!!

i'm still waiting for my call.........i hope i get one

alicia

04:36 pm:

Your Heart Is Green

Love completes you, but that doesn't mean you seek it out. When love comes your way, you integrate it peacefully into the rest of you life. Your flirting style: Laid back Your lucky first date: Walking around aimlessly and talking Your dream lover: Is both enthusiastic and calm What you bring to relationships: Balance

i dunno, is this me??

02:30 pm: HANNA!!!
hanna i need your e-mail address!!!! i have no way of talking to you right now!!.........well if you get this just add me to your msn....alicia_909@hotmail.com

thanks chicky!!

me!